Until a few years ago, I used to compose songs quite often on my acoustic guitar or simply write lyrics without giving any melody to them. But in the past 2-3 years, I didn’t write as many songs as I should’ve because I was too busy getting high and too lazy to do anything productive, about which I had mentioned in one of my previous blogs. But I am clean now and have been running regularly early morning for almost 2 years now. However, I haven’t been into writing songs in quite a few months. The last time I did was nearly 8 months ago. Something just took over me tonight and I decided to go with it. This latest one is filled with gloomy lines that belongs in the genre of “doom lyrics”. So here’s how it goes —
The void that’s engulfing my spirit,
the emptiness that dwells within my soul,
the despair that puts voices in my head;
I’ll carry them with me forever..
all along to my lonely grave.
The burden of sins that weigh on my shoulder,
the casket of memories left to rot deep within,
the darkness that never surrenders to the light;
They sail along towards the other side..
on a distant voyage of loneliness.
It’s been just over a year since we broke up. After deciding to go our separate ways and never to stay in touch, you still kept sending messages and emails. I didn’t want to be rude and so I kept replying to those sms and emails too. I always had a bit of resentment towards you after realizing that all that you kept saying about staying and growing old together were mere words weaved in your fantasy and didn’t have anything to do with reality. But my love for you overtook that resentment and made me move on. I know you still miss me and I believed it when you said that nobody ever made you feel so warm and happy. This was obvious from what you wrote in those mails and from what you said a few months ago about wanting to be in a relationship with me even after you getting married to Iry. I really wanted to believe Continue reading Memories — A chapter closed
Yesterday I had one of the weirdest, if not the scariest dreams. I was trying hard to wake myself up but couldn’t. It felt so real. After going through my dream that I have mentioned below in details, most of you would certainly laugh as I did after I got up, but I can assure you it was no fun when I was in that dream. So this is how it goes: Continue reading WTF! An alien ejaculated on my tush!
You grow from adolescence to an adult. You take up a financially secured job. You get married and have kids. You get insurance and pay the premiums. Your kids grow up; and then you die. End of story. End of life. End of dreams. Continue reading Do not leave your hobbies behind
It was the month of January this year when I instantly got off the bus halfway while coming home from office after I saw a small group of ISKCON (International Society for Krishna Consciousness) devotees distributing Bhagavad Gita to the pedestrians and were singing the Hare Krishna Hare Krishna mantra on a hand-held loudspeaker. I really wanted to clear my doubts about the supremacy of Brahma, Vishnu and Mahesh (Shiva) because there are scriptures that contradict each other and being somewhat interested in religious philosophy, this particular doubt was making me anxious for a few days. This all started with the Bible and Jesus when I was sick of living a life of Continue reading A case for God — views of a former atheist
Note: This blog isn’t a movie review.
Until yesterday evening, I had a different topic in mind to write a blog about, but at late night I watched a couple of movies that made me change my mind. The first one was 1917 directed by Sam Mendes and the second one was The Last Full Measure. Both of them are war movies and were released last year. The acting was brilliant and so was the plot. I checked the rating of The Last Full Measure (TLFM) on imdb and I must say that it disappointed me a little because it was definitely better than an average rating of 6.5. With no disrespect to Sam Mendes and the fallen soldiers of the World War I, I am going to write mostly about TLFM here and how it overwhelmed me with such emotions that I never believed any war movie could do it to me. This particular film moved me to the core. It wasn’t an all out war movie. Those who like to watch drama films, I’m sure they will appreciate this one too. Continue reading War and the living dead — a tribute to Vietnam veterans
The following article is from a notebook where I mentioned my experience after getting high on marijuana one night. After a gap of nearly 3 months, I was feeling like having a few drags in chillum. So I went up to the terrace of our apartment and I smoked it up alone. Earlier I used to smoke up with friends while chatting about whatever topic used to pop up at the time. But not anymore. Now whenever I like to get high, I just find a quiet place from where I can see the clouds during the day and the stars at night while getting lost in my own thoughts. That particular night, there were upsurge of different ideas and emotions within like never before. Sure I got high before on marijuana. Extremely high. But never did I have such an overwhelming feeling like I had that night. I HAD to put them in words in whatever limited way I can. Continue reading Everything is nothing. Nothing is everything
I spent most of my childhood days in Shillong, the capital city of the state of Meghalaya in Northeastern part of India. I was there with my parents for six years. It’s a Christian majority state with beautiful mountains, waterfalls and valleys where people of all religions (minus Islam) celebrate Christmas and participate in the bustle of cheerful season. Even though I’m a Hindu, still we used to celebrate Jesus at home, watch gospel telefilms on TV and set up a pine tree after decorating it during Christmas. Even my mother used to help me pick up a 5 feet tree from the forest. Those were some of the best days of my life. Continue reading The Cult of Christianity in India
One thing I’ve noticed recently among the Nature lovers is that no matter how old they get or how many heartbreaks they go through, their love for Nature never fades away. It’s like they find solace in it. It’s the same with me. Whenever I look up to the sky in the day and constellations at night, the work of the divine never ceases to amaze me. Even the blue cloudless sky makes me feel so small and our routine problems insignificant in this infinite universe. Continue reading Mother Nature and I – An unbreakable bond
I’ve always liked to run early morning. No not on a treadmill but a proper outdoor run with the wind grazing my face. I started my graduation in 2007, and since 2008 onward I was into running intermittently. I was never able to keep up with any form of exercise including running because I got into some really bad company and started to smoke and drink like anything. At times, I used to get anxious thinking about the nicotine that’s accumulating inside me. So I kept quitting cigarettes for a couple of weeks or so (sometimes for 2-3 months) throughout my college life only to relapse and feel guilty again. Between those smoking breaks, I used to eat healthy Continue reading Finding myself with a Half-marathon race